That’s the simplest, most sincere way I can put it.
I have no one to talk to so I have to write this down to get it out. I don’t have anyone to talk to because everyone who cares will ask why I’m sad and I just can’t explain that. For as long as I can remember, I have sad days that I just can’t explain. Thinking about it objectively, I have no reason to be. I have a job, great friends, my family and almost everything I need but I can’t help the way I feel.
I’m feeling down and self-destructive. I’m listening to sad music and tonight, I plan on drinking (I really don’t drink so this is kind of a big deal). I just want to feel something other than sad.
I know I’m going to be okay. Maybe tomorrow or some other day, I’m going to be just fine. Today, I just want to feel.
People are taught that there is a reason for everything. I don’t believe that. Sometimes you can be sad and not know why and it’s okay.